Child I Never Was (2002)

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AKA: Ein Leben Lang Kurze Hosen Tragen
Directed by: Kai S Pieck
Starring: Tobias Schenke (older Jürgen), Sebastian Urzendowsky (younger Jürgen), Ulrike Bliefert (Mother), Walter Gontermann (Father)
Country: Germany
Language: English (Eng Subs)
Runtime: 01:20:38
Genres: Based on a True Story, Serial Killers, Gay-themed, Childhood-Teen-oriented, Family, Domestic Abuse, Old-Young, Kidnapping, Necrophilia, Religious people

Plot – Spoilers:
Based on the German teen serial killer Jürgen Bartsch, who targeted younger boys. The Child I Never Was follows Jürgen growing up in odd circumstances – his mother for starters bathed him, well into his late teens.

The films covers the abductions and killings without getting too explicit, but the real magic happens when the convicted Jürgen reminisces on his crimes, opening his mind and motivations in riveting detail. A character with such extreme self-loathing, that he believed the only time someone would accept him were if they were dead.

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kiggerniller
kiggerniller
October 18, 2025 11:45 pm

Honestly a good doc/movie wtvr u call it. Some missing infos as i searched online but still it’s a 7,5/10 for me.

penis
penis
April 7, 2025 1:04 pm

bro is a fucking faggot for real. good film though

OJ not simp
OJ not simp
December 16, 2021 10:48 am

What a boring rubbish.

The White Horseman
The White Horseman
September 14, 2021 12:01 am

Boring film

Tyler
Tyler
November 27, 2020 4:58 am

I just watched this movie because it seemed to be of the disturbing nature, and I feel as though I’m beginning to run out of options of movies that could be on the ‘most disturbing movies’ lists. I didn’t catch that it was based on a true story until after I finished it. Truly, this movie was uncomfortable to watch. With that said, after reading just the Wikipedia page on this dude, it is my belief that they could’ve done quite a bit more to exhibit why he was so disturbed. The sexual abuse he received from his adoptive mother as well as being “detained in an underground cellar for six years.” I don’t remember any of that being explained in the midst of him telling his life story in the movie. Nevertheless, I think I’ll still rate this 7/10, at least.

Perv
Perv
November 25, 2020 8:37 pm

I liked that a lot! 🙂

al
al
November 24, 2020 4:11 pm

Is that Ben Shapiro